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Remembering this Morning

July 1st, 2006 by Jason · No Comments

I slip in bed when you’re asleep
To hold you close and feel your breath on me
Tomorrow there’ll be so much to do
So tonight I’ll drift in a dream with you

Dixie Chicks, Lullaby

Isaac wrote a while back about looking for “a soundtrack for our lives.” Today I heard the Dixie Chick’s song above and knew after the first stanza that I’d be adding it to my life soundtrack. It captured perfectly this morning—a morning I want to remember. I drifted out of sleep just enough to realize how comfortable I was. The dawn was cool enough that our grandma bedspread (you know, white with cottage-cheese-feeling patterns all over it and tassled edges) was keeping me just warm enough. I sunk a little deeper into the mattress and fell back asleep reveling in the warmth of my wife using my shoulder for a pillow and the peace of nothing to worry about for the next four days. Meanwhile, Toby, our dog, sighed—a bit miffed perhaps that he’d be waiting a bit longer for breakfast.

As good as the waking hours are I often find sleep just as enjoyable. It hasn’t always been this way. As a kid I went through a period (when I moved my room down into the basement) of being terrified of going to sleep. In college I just saw it as an intrusion on the important business of the day. After September 11th sleep was fretful, depressing, and fear-filled. Not to mention the many nights in the last few years where anxiety woke me up well before dawn. So now when a morning comes along where I feel in my bones, fingertips, and breath that, in the words of Julian of Norwich, “all shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well” I’m thankful. And when a song comes along that same day that recalls and vivifies the moment, all the better.

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